Don't dream, when you can't make it real. They're only fictions anyway - Moddi, A Sense of Grey

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Nov 7, 2011

At 25

I think I've hit a quarter life crisis. My emotions seem to be on some sort of roller coaster ride; one day I'm feeling content, joyous and ecstatic about everything. The next day I wake up and realize its all gone downhill. This morning I got up and the house was empty. My uncle and aunt had gone to drop off Sahar to meet some colleagues. I lay in bed alone for a while and that I think was my undoing. Everything just came rushing back and the more I tried to push the memories out of my head, the more they seemed  to attack with full force. I hate him for ruining my vacation. Stupid jerk. Au contraire,  if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be in Dubai in the first place. Yes, I know. I'm very confused. 
Anyway, I decided to let my thoughts linger for a while. I got into the yummy bathtub and surrounded myself with foam and bubbles and let myself go. You know how they show people trying to drown themselves in the bathtub? That's a lie! Your body just naturally floats up and its such a great feeling when you're no longer carrying your own weight. 
I have never played in a bathtub as a kid. I'm sure a lot of people haven't, but watching kids in movies jump around in their tub with that yellow duck floating around used to fascinate me. How come these kids get a pool in their bathroom? I used to think.
This Is The Tub I would Have Liked To Bathe In As a Child, But......

....This Is What I Got!

So I decided to go a little nuts and splashed around in the tub making duck sounds. It was brilliant fun till I came out and saw all the water on the floor. And then when I came out, the housekeeper was giving me strange looks. I suppose she heard me going mad in the tub.
Couldn't care less. That's another thing down on my bucket list. 


  1. You just made me giggle. :D

    My son used to LOVE to splash as much as possible in our tub (somewhere between the bowl and the luxury bath in your pictures) when he was little. I used to get so upset to see all the water on the floor, but then realizing how much fun he just had put the smile back on my face. I don't remember him making duck noises, though. :D

  2. Lol! I think the housekeeper had the same feeling when she went in and saw the disaster I had left behind. Except, she probably didn't care much for the fun I had. And as for the duck noises, well, I didn't have a rubber duck on me so I guess you've got to compensate somehow.